When I began this journey, I was keeping a journal; each night I would record how I did, how I felt, how many days had gone by and how many were left until my birthday. It was exciting to see how far I was coming and to see how long I had left. That worked for about 200 days. Then I started to get freaked out...what if I didn't succeed? what if I gained? what if? what if? So, I did what any self-respecting person would do, I stopped journalling, stopped counting down the days, and stopped holding myself accountable. Right now, this is simply about losing weight. This is about finishing something that I started. Will I make it to my goal? I have absolutely no idea. But, will I journal here in front of all of you, every single day? Yes. Will I turn 35 knowing that I tried, and failed, and wandered, and succeeded in this journey that will last me the rest of my life? Hell yes!
So, here I go. 286 days day; 79 to go. Today I followed my program; and for those of you who really know me, it was Day 1 without a McD Diet Coke--there are a few other changes going on in our lives as well (damn you Dave Ramsey!). More on that later...
So, until tomorrow...
Awesome! The fact that you are restarting means that you will succeed! Because if you fail one day and pick up again means that you WILL reach your goal. I know it! Yikes, no Diet Coke, huh? The Walmart off-brand diet cola is pretty good and cheap in 2-liters...
ReplyDeleteThanks for writing, call me when you need to, you are an inspiration! Peace!