Day Two

A no good, terrible, really bad day.  Yep, there it is.  I'm not even going to try and salvage it.  I'm going to bed and beginning anew tomorrow.

Day One

So, for three hours today, it went really well...I got out of the house this morning without yelling.  I was calm and composed; the kids got to school on time; and I went to work and all was well.  Then I went to a meeting, which started out fine, but as it continued, Steve started to annoy me, and I could literally feel crankiness welling up inside me (kind of like the blue outer-space alien Stitch...how his "bad-o-meter" red level started rising when he got cranky...").  Anyway, on other days, I would start to pout, or yell or hit him (actually I did hit him...but not in a totally cranky way), and today I breathed.  Seriously, that's all I did, I took a deep breath, told myself this was not going to turn into a cranky spiral, and my red level started to go down.  And actually I used that technique a few times today..actually more than a few.  Red level starts to rise...I breathe and feel a little bit better.  Not bad for the first day.  

However, tomorrow, I've decided for the 12th time, that I'm going to stop drinking diet coke.  I'm not sure if it's for Lent, or for me, but whatever it's for, I will definitely need to do some praying to get through the day.  And, I'm pretty sure, my crankiness level might get a little high.  So, wish me luck...or my family luck....

And tomorrow maybe I'll write without watching ridiculous shows on Disney Channel (what in the world is Kick Buttowski anyway, and why do I let Elijah watch it?!?!?), and my posts will make sense.  

Until tomorrow, I'll leave you with my new mantra/verse/motto given to me by a dear pastor friend of mine (Thanks Kurt!)  Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18). 

I'm back...

     Looks like I haven't posted since the end of May.  Imagine that...me starting something and fizzling out!  I've decided, however, that I like writing...I like at least attempting to do something longer than two days, and since I can't keep anything to myself, I'm going to blog my efforts.  So, my new endeavor has nothing to do with weight loss, or church, or my children (but you know me...it will probably end up including all three).

    So, here's my new mission--I'm going to stop being cranky.  I know--if you actually are my friend or really even acquaintance, you know how hard this will be.  I'm not exactly sure how to do it...I come from kind of a cranky, complaining family (sorry mom!)...and I'm a pessimistic, look at the dirty, empty glass kind of girl.  But, lately I'm annoying even myself with my negativity, so I'm giving it up.  Right now.  At this very moment, I'm going to look on the bright side of life (cue--Monty Python) and think only positive things, and surround myself with positive people, and realize that I have a beautiful life...

    How exactly will this happen?  I'm not sure.  How will I measure my progress?  Again, not sure...but my guess is my children and spouse might have something to say about it.  In fact, I just told Evelyn that my new blog posts were going to be about not being cranky and she said (and I quote) "that will be a miracle..."  Obviously I have some work to do.

    So, maybe for the next few hours, I will find a few things to be grateful for....and when my eyes start to roll or an accusatory tone wants to be spoken, I will pause, take a deep breath and remember my new motto:  I am now a cranky-free girl.  Wish me luck!